Toby

Because...he's cute. I love the bad barkin', stinky, small furry animal chasin' little bugger.

I'm a planner. I like to know things ahead of time so I know how to manage it. Control freak? Maybe a little. But only with the major things. I don't handle not knowing very well. Don't get me wrong, I'm spontaneous. If I could (read: if I had the money) we'd be on weekend excursions at the drop of a hat...shoe...whatever. I love spur of the moment trips and adventures. But the big stuff? I have to know how it's going to go down.

I still don't have my financial aid info for school yet. We are six weeks out of the first day of college and I'm still on the fence. Will I have money for my tuition? Books? Supplies? I need an external hard drive for my laptop. I need software... I'd like to get a jump on those things so I'm set for the first day. Homework waits for no one.

Every time time I call the financial aid office they say "a couple more weeks..." seriously? I've had my paperwork in since April. My patience is waning.

Since the countdown began, of me taking this huge step, my goals have been evolving. It started out with me not feeling that I had the background and knowledge to produce a more successful photography business. I only had the love of taking pictures, not the knowing of how to do it better. But now, my love of writing is taking hold too and maybe...my dream is transforming.

I'm not sure yet. It's still rolling around in my head, heart and the vast infinite that is the future. I'm thinking about journaling it, however. How it manifests, the challenges and triumphs.

If any one's interested. It will be here...or somewhere ;)