Right. So now this comment has left me on a roll. Since this person has been reading my blog for a while, have they not gotten the sense that I would never do anything to hurt anyone? My anger, my frustration, the good the bad and the ugly come forth in my words. I definitly admit that. It is right here for all to see that care to read. But I have never! taken action or done something to purposfully hurt someone or take revenge. I will say what is on my mind. Many of which, cannot handle. So be it. But my realtionship with God is a personal one. He knows my heart. And only He. DO I ask for forgiveness each day? Damn right I do.
Maybe I get a little flipping tired of being so flipping nice all the time. I would like a little something in return. I am thankful for what I have...don't get me wrong. But damn it if I don't deserve to have someone that can actually treat me with as much courtesy, respect and love that I give in return. I asked for nothing more from this person than simply that. And what did he do? Throw it in my face. He, matt, is the bastard. Or have I hit that right on the head again?
That whole situation does give me grief. Something that I strive to let go of everyday. Not him to let go of...the hurt it caused. It has left me bitter and mis-trusting. 10 fold what was before.
This is my place to vent...to rant. I have every right to say what I feel, and what I feel is completely validated. I don't believe God is going to hold it against me.
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