Baby bumble bee

It will be Friday. In exactly 1 hour and 15 minutes. Ok so, from when I started this post. Most likely, by the time I am done, it will be more like 15 minutes...or less. It takes me a while to spit stuff out. I walk around, flip through a book, pet my cat...think. I even do that when I am not really concentrating and writing a bunch of blather to clear my head for sleep. Much like I am doing now. Ahem.

Anyway, Noggin' was really trying to be nice today. She even told me that I looked "cute" this morning. Go figure. I already knew I did anyway. :P I am kidding. I was nice. Really.

My cat, Sophia, has been sick the past couple days. I wasn't sure what was wrong, so I took her in to the Dr. They didn't know either since everything checked out good. But she is in pain, somewhere, and to remedy, they prescribed some anti-inflamatory with narcotics. Poor thing is loopier than me after 2 glasses of wine. I held her in my arms, wrapped in a blanket and she just laid there staring at a spec on the wall for about 10 minutes tonight. Her eyes dialated, and her body motionless. Must be some good stuff. Noggin' asked me "Why don't you just get another cat?" "What?" I said. "Well if she dies, just go get another cat. It's just a cat" She said, rather matter-of-factly. After a little more probing, I found out that she doesn't like animals. At all. She said she wasn't raised with them and so doesn't see a need or understand why anyone would become attached to them. Ok..I thought. I do think that some people are a bit fanatical when it comes to their pets. I would never put a pet before another human being. But to some people, their pets are like their children. It brings them joy, fulfilling a desire to care and nurture something. You can't fault them for that. She doesn't understand that need. It would seem to me, that, that explains a lot about the kind of person I am realizing her to be. Something lacking there. In my opinion.

Aside from Noggin', my daughter was very concerned today. She even called me from school asking if I would be taking Sophia in, and to call and let her know what time it would be. She took Sophia's collar to school, to keep her with her and in her thoughts. Dramatic you think? Perhaps. But you see, Sophia was the one stable unconditional joy in Rachel's life when there was so much change and circumstance happening in our world the past few years. Grounding has found our family of two now, but it has only made that bond between my little girl and her kitty that much stronger. I am glad she feels empathy and concern. Caring and devotion, for something other than herself. They are good qualities to have. And sadly, not everyone has them.