Tuesday, August 09, 2005

I don't watch TV

So I just finished a Gilmore Girls marathon. Damn Luke. Jerk. Here Lorelei and he have been having this secret wayward crush on each other for years. Hints here and there and then finally...finally they get together. Which everyone in town thinks should have happened a long time ago, and what happens? A little drama and his words are "I don't think I can do this relationship. It is just too much." Too much??? What the hell is that? The same cop out loser mentality that most men have these days. I thought more of him. I thought wow...here is this guy, so honest, so real. Who gives a rip that he runs a diner, money isn't important. So he is a littel scraggly under the collar, looks aren't important. The important thing was that he genuinly cared for Lorelei. And here I thought she was the dumb one for waiting so long to get it going with Luke. I was wrong. He is the idiot. So typical. So what now? He is going to find some girl to shack up with and call a "blessing" upon his life? Asshole.

I know, it is just a TV show. But I cried. I cried because I knew how Lorelei felt when she told him she understood. She heard what he said when he said he was out. That it was fine, she was fine and she would be the strong woman and not let it make her weak. He just walked away. So typical.

I wanna know where that guy is? Damn it. Where is the guy that sticks with it because he cares. Truly does and it's not conditional upon the climate of the moment. I dont' think it exists. It is just a fantasy.

And frankly, my fantasies have been a hell of a lot better than any reality I have known. And, please, don't tell me, yet again, that I need patience. 'Cause at this moment, I am not feeling like I have much left.

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