Genesis 2:22

I am bored. But I would rather been floating around aimlessly online than to get offline and have the phone ring...again. Yes, I have dial up. I hate it, but it does have some perks. Like a valid excuse for not having to talk to someone you don't want to, and not feeling guilty cause you checked the caller ID and just didn't want to answer. Yeah, you know you do it too...

Ugh, I blew it tonight. Had to reboot my system cause Photoshop decided to freak on me. Well, while I was offline, and mind you it was 11:30pm or so, my phone rings. Damn it. And of course I answered, no reason why I wouldn't be home at 11:30 at night. So, I had to talk to him. I tried to make it brief, tried to scoot him off with thoughts that I was tired. After all he did ring me up really really late. But, he kept going on about how we need to go out etc...

I asked him about the relationship he was having with this one girl. He said that they still talk. I was like...ok...and that means what? He tried to ask me out once, when he was in full swing with this girl. He said he wanted to make sure there wasn't something better out there, and that this one was the right decision. Well, ok, flattering that he may think I am better, contrary to what others have said to me, but why would I do that? Even if he was "available" I don't see myself with this person. In any way, except a mild friendship. Extremely mild, more like acquaintance. The kind where you say hi once in a while, how's it going?, yeah I went to church, have a great day. I have been honest with him, told him how I feel on it. Nothing I say here isn't something I haven't already said to him. I respect him as a person and am thankful that I can talk to him openly.

But, there is a lot behind my reasons for this, and actually now that I think on it...I have posted about him before on here. Our views are hugely different. And, he really just torks me off sometimes. Not only with spiritual issues, but politically, emotionally...erg. He said that he doesn't want to raise any more kids. That he has raised his and is done. Well, hello?, I am still raising mine and surely not going to "drop" that because he wants me around at his beck and call 24/7. (that is what he told me he expects from "his" woman) It is part of who I am. A huge part. He also said once, that he could not see a woman as being beautiful and would not tell her so. He said, only that which God created was beautiful. This, from someone who quotes me scripture. Yeah. So who then, might I ask, created woman?

Do I really need to say anymore? I don't think so.