And the beat goes on...

It has been a full weekend. I am thankful to be able to sit and write out some things this morning. Yesterday was spent at birthday parties and then dinner at a friends house. One party in particular, I had seen some friends that I hadn't seen or talked to for a while. Intentionally so. They were part informed participants in something that took center stage for me this last year. I managed to make it through the event without any reference to said events. I was so thankful. They were actually very nice, although the twinkles in their eyes said much more than their mouths. "How are you doing Michelle?" *wink wink* I am glad they let it pass without bringing up any of the things I choose to forget. The whole thing was nerve racking enough. I even showed up considerably late because of not wanting to feel the stares.

On my way to dinner at my friends, (of course this was an opposite end of all that encompasses central oregon, so much driving) I thought I would stop by and say hello to someone I have been dating the past couple weeks. He has a store here in town, works on Saturdays, and I hadn't been able to speak with him for a couple days. Well, it was interesting. He beraded me for not keeping in touch, said I was too busy for him and then made a really off color remark to my daughter. The mama bear in me pretty much took over and well...I think this possibility is pretty much done. It may have been a moronic slip of the tongue or completely intentional. I don't know for sure...either way, it bothers me and my trust in men is slight to say the least.

Moving on...

I swear, I learn about myself each day. My views have changed so much this last year with all I have dealt with. Even relationships in general. What is so valuable and what isn't and easy to let go of. How it effects me in general. I can walk away knowing that my decision was a right one. It is based on my own needs and that of my child. No more the days of doing whatever I could for them, to make them happy. It is ok for me to get something too. And if it isn't there...then see ya. I know that sounds selfish. But ya know...there is such a thing as healthy selfishness. I am entitled just as much as the next. Anyway...I am just confirming my thoughts...it helps.

So, onto the next day. Some help for my daughter to add some percussion to her song, more parties today, a promise to my sweet baby girl of a movie, and hopefully some much needed cleaning of my home... Enjoy yours!