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The evolution of my town is becoming more and more obvious. The people here are changing with the newbies moving in. Apparently, we are the second most moved to city in the United States. I can understand why...it's beautiful and has offerings like no other place I have been. (which leaves a lot, however) Just frequenting the grocery store has reminiscings of the place I grew up. Big city, anonymous lifestyle and people that could give a rip if they step on your toes much less, making a right turn in front of you at 60mph with a shopping cart. Sheesh. I have found myself, more often, going to the places in town that still hold the local feel. Granted, I was not born and raised here. But my home has been made here over the last 10 years and I sort of feel like an adopted local. Sorta... :P Anyway..it is still an awesome place to live, corrupted state government, democratic extremists, wannabe gangbangers and all.

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I am working on the "fear" thing. Keep the wheels moving...go with the flow, quit looking for the direction it's going and just go. My mom said my post about fear and such the other night sounded hysterical and well, pretty much proves a point she had tried to make to me once (I won't go into that one). I don't think I was in the midst of hysterics, just writing out my thoughts. But I guess it could take on the essence of the dramatic depending on personal perspective. Understood. I am fine. Besides...the guy kissed me today and my toes did this weird curly, hot thing. If I was wearing socks, they would be knocked off. Dang me... One of those "take your breath away" kisses... Nice. I mentioned how good it was to him...he said he had been practicing. Hmmm. Keep up the good work. ;)

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Work. My job. My chosen profession. It has been...hmmm...busy. Which of course is good. But man o man...I am lucky to push myself out to get my lunch break. My brain is fried by the end of the day. I miss Kyle. He was such a bright face to see everyday. A welcome break of laughter to some off color remark I made. I am so looking forward to having the long weekend and spending some time with my baby girl. The days have been flying by and I feel like I haven't really talked or hung out with her for a while. If I don't soon, I will turn around and she will be 5'8", heaving chest and have a boyfriend with a motorcycle at her side. Yes, exaggerated...but you get my point I am sure.

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I have been glued to video games the past week or so. My late night hours, fingers stuck to the controller to conquer another mission and get that weapon upgrade. My mind becomes mush. I love it. It is better than liquefying my brain on television shows that require no thought at all, anyway. I have needed a break from constructive mind activity, and this works well for me. Speaking of which...I need to go. I am "}{" <--this close to beating the bad guy.

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