Some Cheese with that?

I just got home 45 minutes ago. A long day for sure.

One of my clients, that used to be a sort of "co-worker" of mine, stopped in today. She tried to point me in a certain direction of conversation regarding an ugly piece of history, but I rebelled and flipped the arrow. Ha! I say... I could care less to go there.

Anyway...

I am thinking of taking on a second career. I have been contemplating it for a bit, but I keep coming back to the issue of Time. My current position demands a great deal of it already. There is no give there at all. What pieces I have left, I try to form into some happy picture of a social life. I am just not really sure I could pull it off. If so...it could be something that forms into something larger and possibly full time. That would be awesome. I could make my own schedule and actually have more personal time at the right time...if you get what I mean by that. And with that personal time I could fulfill more goals for myself or even make a date with my "guy-friend" that doesn't require juggling. (teehee that sounds sort of...oh ok nevermind)

So here I am still thinking about it. Do I just go for it and see how it goes? The worst thing is that it wouldn't and I am no worse off. Or...do I just think on it some more and never really know for sure. Sounds pretty clear cut huh? I suppose it should. I just don't like to fail. And I don't commit to something that isn't wholehearted. 110% as it were. I don't know that I could dedicate that to it. I already feel like I am running on empty most days.

Well, I would say that is enough whining for a month or so. Sheesh. There are more important things than my feeble dilemma of idea. I have an amazing life, I would like to add. I just feel at sort of a crossroads, or maybe there are some side roads off the main that could be explored, rather. They may open to a sprawling green, flower filled meadow or dead-end at an old tree stump infested with termites (or parasites...ha! I crack myself up) ((sorry, inside joke)).

Tomorrow is another day... My bed beckons me to yonder cave of comfort.