Within the pieces lie...

Pecan~
Why do some people come into your life, only to walk away never to be heard from again? They make this incredible impression on who you are as a person, weaving themselves intricately within your being. Then, like the flash in which they came into your knowing, they are gone. Do I cross their mind as often as they do mine? I wonder...or is it that they have just gone on without another thought on it at all? They are in my thoughts, obviously. Wondering if they are ok...happy. But maybe it is just me... Maybe it is because I am looking back on this last year and all that has happened within my sphere. Much too much. I am looking forward to what may be a calmer year. I can hope anyway.

Apple~
I am thankful, however, that I can end this particular year, knowing that certain chapters are definitely over. That we are healthy, have a home and food on the table. Yeah God. Realization of what is truly important, who is worth the effort of friendship and moving away from those that are not. My mom says I am habitually naive. Always trying to see the good in someone, believing that it exists within them. I guess she is right. She understands, she is the same. But I also know what it feels like to discover that some just don't have good. The drawbacks of believing in people.

Minced Meat~
My daughters father didn't contact her at all on Christmas. Still hasn't. The last we heard from him was in October. I feel so sad for her. Although, she hasn't mentioned him once. His absence is nothing new to her. I had hoped that he was trying to make things better between them with the last visit, and even thought that maybe I was a bit too harsh. But, I was wrong again. He is just the same.

Pumpkin~
I look at her now, curled in her pretty new bed. The sweet soft face of her infancy and wonder how anyone can walk away from such creation. How some people just don't' have that kind of connection with their own child. I don't get it...I don't see how that can be and no excuse or reason holds validity to it. I spent a lot of time with her today, talking and sharing. We talked about recent events in the east, the tragedies and loss of those struck by weather. How thankful we are, to be where we are. And how our prayers are needed. She is bright, and so caring.

Cherry (A La Mode)~
I have met many people this last year. Some of which I have been able to have deep and soul searching conversations with. So connected in thought and feeling, that it was a given that it was meant to have some sort of lesson behind it. They told me what they realized their lesson was...but I have yet to understand my own. What it was that I was supposed to walk away from it with. Was I only to receive the delight of having such conversations? Knowing someone that was like myself? I feel there was more and I am not getting it. I have changed a lot from it all. Maybe that is it alone...