Rooms really do spin

Ya know...there is a reason I don't drink. I am realizing it today. Sheesh. I went out last night and decided..Aw...why not enjoy a nice glass of wine? I deserve it right? It has been a hard couple weeks, my mind has been turning in all sorts of directions and it would be nice to mellow a bit. Well, then as I got home..decided to have a couple more. A friend of mine stopped by and I had another. Ugh. My head hurts. I am glad my friend came by though. (this is the one that always asks me out and I back out with) I think I need to come up with a name for him instead of always saying he is the one I always back out of dates with...don't ya think? Anyway...he made me laugh. He is such an easy going guy. And not self proclaimed either. I have noticed that when a guy I date says he is easy going...it isn't true. It is just what they would like to think of themselves. Then they turn out to be emotionally bound, barrier building butt heads that you can't be yourself with cause they actually have some serious issues with other women and put it back on me. (well that felt good :P)

My mom asked me last night if I had any regrets about my current situation that has now been closed. At first...I thought that maybe I did. I really wasn't sure I had made the right decision. Yet, still felt driven to do it. I am not so sure now that what I was feeling was regret...but more disappointment. Disappointment in this person that I have realized isn't what they come off as being or what I originally perceived him to be. Disappointed, that yet another person in my life has disappointed me. And disappointed, because I know he is going to pull the typical "Guy" thing and not care, comment or converse at all. But the more I look at it, I feel I made the right decision. For me.

Boundaries are a good thing...