I am back to work tomorrow. Not a single phone call did I receive. 'Course, My phone line has been pretty tied up. Somewhat, intentionally. It worries me, though. I wonder what disaster I may find, questions and piles of papers lay on my desk. Perhaps, nothing. I chuckle at the thought. :p My mom asked me today if I managed to resist. (calling work etc) I did, she was proud.
I suppose I am ready to head back. But it went too quick. I enjoyed my time with Rachel. We had fun, watched movies, played vid games, talked, laughed and took pictures. We watched the video of her christmas program today. She was too cute...and the back of the womans head that kept standing in front of me. Nice hair...
Picasa is fun. I have so many programs for video and photos, but I like this one so far. My pics look much better before I upload them to Hello...loses something in the translation. Hmmm anyway...
I feel weird. The whole emotional honesty thing and saying what I did earlier. No censorship. It is what it is. I had this sense of dread that someone, somewhere, was going to give me the lecture about letting go. Let me say now...Don't. I have, I think, given up the possibility of him feeling the same or taking the chance to. But that doesn't change the fact that I feel it and want it. I am not "pining" or any of the other cliche comments I can think of. This is different and for me to put a name or label or some sort of explanation is beyond my abilities and knowledge. Believe you me, it is frustrating.
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