I don't think I will ever get used to hearing about a certain person. I don't want to know what is happening with them, who they are with and how well it is going. I don't want to know about the forward movements they are making or if they are happy. I really don't care. I will always hate him for how he treated me. How worthless I was to him. The action was blatant, cruel and just aweful. The one person that understood the feeling, so inflicts it. No better than the Christian committing an act they know is wrong. It won't ever feel "ok". It won't ever spark an ounce of forgiveness in me. He is a hateful person that inspires nothing but hate within me, for him. I have wanted to change this feeling. Move past it. Be the better person, but it keeps coming back to haunt me. I once wished nothing but the best for this person. Now all I wish is failure. Utterly and completely. I will have my day.
Do you get that Matt? Do you "understand"?
Call it rage...call it whatever you want...I call it truth. But you could never grasp that concept, could you?
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Romans 12:19-21,
19 Beloved, never avenge yourselves, but leave room for the wrath of God; for it is written, "Vengeance is mine, I will repay, says the Lord."
20 No, "if your enemies are hungry, feed them; if they are thirsty, give them something to drink; for by doing this you will heap burning coals on their heads."
In short, feeling this way may cause you more grief than good. Be careful.
21 Do not be overcome by evil, but overcome evil with good." (NRSV)
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In the Sermon on the Mount [SM], in Mat 5:38-42
“You have heard that it was said, ‘An eye for an eye, and a tooth for a tooth.’ But now I tell you: do not take revenge on someone who wrongs you. If anyone slaps you on the right cheek, let him slap your left cheek too. And if someone takes you to court to sue you for your shirt, let him have your coat as well. And if one of the occupation troops forces you to carry his pack one kilometer, carry it two kilometers. When someone asks you for something, give it to him; when someone wants to borrow something, lend it to him. (TEV)
A few verses earlier, in Mat 5:21,22, referring to Exo 20:13, Lev 24:17, and Deu 17:8.9, Jesus had said that one would be brought to judgment not only for murder but even for being angry with others.
“You have heard that it was said to those of ancient times, ‘You shall not murder’; and ‘whoever murders shall be liable to judgment.’ But I say to you that if you are angry with a brother or sister, you will be liable to judgment; and if you insult a brother or sister, you will be liable to the council; and if you say, ‘You fool,’ you will be liable to the hell of fire. (NRSV)
And so...this is the comment that was removed by this bastard person..
You made your point. All too often I need to be reminded. I thank you for that. However...maybe I should be the one to remove any comments from my page?
I know my anger gets the better of me where this person is concerned. I get a little tired when people remind me and point out current facts about this person that I am trying to get past. Most days, months..I am fine and have moved on nicely. I don't really wish the worst of things on him. Putting it in words on here however, that I do, was wrong. I apologize for that. I was expressing my feeling at the moment.
Forgiveness has been my hardest part of acceptance where this situation is concerned.
So...who are you? I already know where you are. ;)
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