Metallic Flakes

"It is easier to forgive an enemy than to forgive a friend." ~William Blake

It is funny. Cause I don't think I would have so much trouble with forgiving this "friend" if they could only give admittance. Maybe. I dunno.

I had a dream the other night...of him and this girl and their car. This car was what I remember the most, The deep color of blue and the number 19. Why 19? It had to do with their child that was born 19 months ago. But I remember in the dream that the fact that she told me 19 months, meant something. My attitude was odd too. I was nice to them. Accepting and happy to hear about their "stuff". I had my usual feeling however, that this wasn't permanent. And I felt horrible for feeling such a thing when they seemed happy. Much like his last relationship. I had the same feeling but thought, well...they seem happy, so I must be wrong. But I wasn't. Hmmm. Her face was different too. From what it truly is. She was someone else in my dream but yet the same person, name. But I have learned that just because something doesn't look physically exactly as it is, that, that isn't what you need to listen too. It is the other stuff...like 19...blue...etc.

Not making sense to you huh? Just ignore my rambling. I am just thinking it through. It would help if I was at liberty to question. But I am not. I guess it will just be a mystery.