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Didn't I mention earlier that I am faking it pretty good at work? Well...scratch that. I think I have also mentioned how transparent I can be, even when I am trying to hide.

My boss called me in his office this afternoon. I thought for sure...it wasn't good. I did something...said something...or was perceived in a wrong way etc... He said I needed to voice my frustration to him more. That I was too quiet about what has been going on. He asked if I felt overwhelmed with all that was being expected of me, the difficulties we have been faced with etc. I sort of felt like this was a trick question. One of those, where no answer is a right one? Whatever I say will be turned around into something negative. I sat for a moment and thought, holding back my emotion (which has been getting the better of me after I get off work) and wondered how I was going to answer him. Before I could, (saved by the boss not liking silence) he chimed in about how I can vent to him. I thought...hmmm, Well, I vent, I most certainly do that (thanks mom). But to him? I don't think so. He said that I need to delegate some work towards him, but yet he is the one that adds to my plate each day. The meeting left me a bit confused, but he did say that I was doing an "awesome job". It felt nice to hear...but I think he was just trying to diffuse what could have been explosive.

I have been really close to taking the plunge and quitting. One of those "I don't care what happens" moments "But this will make me feel a whole lot better"
It isn't the smart thing to do but at the same time...it would feel really good. For a minute, until the smart part comes back and you realize you have no way to support yourself and your child. My boss knows how I feel about this. How badly I need to work. He knows I won't up and leave because of it and will deal with whatever comes my way. He told me today, that he doesn't want me to think that he is taking advantage of me. I had no response to that statement.