Tape Measures

So...what did I do last night? In a moment...

I made some corrections to some recent entries. Sometimes, I read back over what I had written and realize that I didn't take the care to hit spell check. Sorry. Pardon me. It isn't my first thought when hitting publish since this place is just for thoughts versus anything really constructive literary wise. My posts are full of fragments, run-ons and the like. It is a bit better than my previous journals, old fashioned hand written type, so for that I am thankful. I tend to write in here as I would talk to someone in person. Either telling a story, expressing emotion (good or bad)or flat out jibberish. It doesn't always make sense to the unseasoned (of me) reader. Understood. I am who I am, and for that, I make no apologies. (we all have reasons to justify who we are and how we believe life to function) No apologies, but yet I will be the first to say that I will surely change over the coming years, days, months. It is a given. But, I do sometimes wonder and have been given testimony that certains thing I say can be taken out of context. The expression in which I displayed was misunderstood (originally the word "wrong" was written, but I see nothing wrong with what I write). Sometimes I just notice it myself and think that this person may not have understood my intent. An example? I answered an email yesterday with a comment that said "To squishy..." First off, it should have been "Too" and not "to". The reference to "squishy" meant myself (girl parts ya know)versus the part about me being a plastic doll. In comparison. (This isn't making any sense is it? So to continue the puzzle...) There was no offense taken on my comment, but I found myself deep in thought over a simple comment I made and how it could have been taken by someone I don't know very well. Another example? Years ago I worked for an advertising company. I worked with other agencies regarding programming and such of national TV commercials etc. One company that we delt with quite often, I would speak to a particular rep almost everyday. He tended to get a bit flirty on the phone but he was married, so I didn't play the game back. He told me once that he liked how I stayed on top of things. I replied with the comment of "I like to be on top." Ummm...can you see how that might be taken a certain way? He got very quiet on the other end of the line and then replied with "Alrighty then...nice to know!". I thought....oh no! He took it "That" way. I was mortified and embarrassed. Cause the truth of the matter is, it is true. But he had no way of knowing that. It wasn't my thought behind the comment and it was his mind that went there. I called him back, later that day, and apologized if something I said could have been taken a different way.

Yeah, I know, I think way too much. Believe me you, it has been pointed out to me on several occaisions, if not daily.

Moving on...

Last night. Think of the most exciting, fun filled, spontaneous, Heaven sent night of your life and insert...

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Cause that isn't what I had and anything you could put *there* would most likely be better. I went and did some house shopping after work. (My cats are thankful, and so am I with a nice new pair of silk jami's :) Came home, made some easy dinner (a Ham sandwich and some cottage cheese with fruit constitutes easy, right?)and fell asleep at 7:30pm. Yes 7:30. I woke at 11pm wondering what just happened. I came, got on my computer, grumbled about how slow dial up is, ran a bunch of diagnostics on my system to confirm it wasn't my new computer, realized that I am coming down with yet another cold (I blame it on myself, as last weekend I decided to clean my yard in the rain, got completely soaked and topped it off with only a couple hours of sleep every night this week) and then went back to bed. I laid there thinking of ways I could rearranged my bedroom cause I am needing some "change". How sad.

Please feel free to leave a comment or two about how I could have better spent my evening. Anything, would be greatly appreciated.