I chatted with an old friend tonight. Hadn't spoken to him in a while unless he had a random question about my work. He was quite talkative tonight. Went on about a relationship he had just ended. How this person had woken him and let him feel "those" feelings again. How hurt he was that it didn't work out, how she reminded him of how he felt once before when he was younger, only this time he wasn't going to let it slip through his fingers. But it did. One of those timing things, I guess. He was finally ready to be in a relationship and she was just ending one. He said he was going to be more proactive now in his efforts. Efforts of finding someone to share life with. He is a good person, I am sure he will find someone.
We dated a couple years back. Just once, but we remained friends. I really liked him, but he was in that place that this girl he was with, is now. He didn't want a relationship, only companionship. Friends with benefits, to put it bluntly. I, couldn't do that. He understood and was respectful. Which, ya know, made me like him more.
He asked me how I was doing, how Rachel was and that he thought about me when he drove by my office. I said "Well, at least some man thinks of me." and sent out the obligatory "LoL" so as not to come off pitiful or "woe is me". I cried as I typed, all the while sending encouraging words of hope and thankfullness that there is good in every situation.
It's so easy to see in anothers.
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I'm sorry things are so crappy for you right now. Seems to be going around these days. Only advice I can give -- and the only thing that works for me -- is to count your blessings, try to get plenty of sleep, treat yourself to an ice cream cone, play some happy music, sing at the top of your lungs, buy yourself some flowers, watch plenty of funny movies, do something new, go swimming, walk around the block, eat at a new restaurant, read a good happy book, but that's all I can think of on the spur of the moment ... :)
It is just crappy internally. I will be ok, always am. Perhaps, I just need to up the ampage on the vitamin B. :P
I count my blessings everyday. Sleep? Hummm I am working on it. I had the ice cream last night. The music and singing is a daily occurrence, regardless of mood. I'll buy some flowers today, take my daughter to the movies and park really far away to get in that "walk".
Thanks Tech.
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