I should have had the wine. Sleep was elusive, to say the least.
I laid in bed till almost one. Tossing, and turning. My body was saying "Yes...please." But my mind was still amped from my day and voicing, quite loudly "Ummm No." I had all from my day go through my head, that of tomorrow and what I had said to someone a year ago. Thoughts of why I did that, what was I thinking etc. People danced through my thoughts, those I knew and those I didn't. Of events transpired and those not realized as yet. It was hard to turn it off last night. I tried thinking about my fantasy from earlier in the day. (I tend to take myself somewhere else when I am bogged down with work.) A little escape for my brain, all the while, busily working. I was in a car, barefeet planted on the dash, comfy jeans scrunched around my knees, and the warm dry wind whipped my face and made 50 lashes with my hair against my cheek. Loud music filled the car as the driver pressed on to nowhere. The landscape was lush but open and the sun beat down on the pavement. I wanted to be there. It was a feeling of freedom and enjoying the person that was with me. No worries, no commitments, just enjoying being alive and in the moment. It helped, I fell to sleep. But the morning came quickly at 5. Stupid alarm clock...it doesn't even have to go off.
So, another day. It will be good I am sure. Hope yours is too...
2 comments:
I have a CD of ocean sounds and river sounds that helps me fall asleep. You might try one out sometime.
That is a good idea. I actually have one that is sounds of the ocean with soft celtic music in the background. Hummm....just the thought. Then, I can place myself on the beach with barefeet, music lightly wafting out onto the terrace, slight breeze and sunshine. Ummm yeah. That would work alright...
*slapping cheeks*
I need to snap out of it... :P
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