And yet another...

At what point, is friendship not really a friendship but merely someone taking advantage? Is it wrong that you have helped someone out, to the point of your own detriment, only for them to come back and say what an inconvenience it all is for them? I am referring to yet another conversation from this past weekend. A conversation that has gotten me thinking seriously about whether or not I should continue this or just take back what was done and move away from it all. It is this "thing" that now hangs over the relationship.

The whole agreement was only supposed to be temporary until they could manage it on their own. But that time never came. They have the perception that they are helping me out. But it has done nothing but cost me. Cost me my good credit standing, cost me money and given me a few grey hairs to boot. If I remember right, and I am certain that I do, they confronted me about it and asked if they could take on this "burden". (of course at the time it wasn't a burden but something better for them) I asked for nothing in return except commitment to see it through. And now, I hear hints of wanting it to go away, and how difficult it is. Difficult? I know how difficult It is. Believe me. How funny it is, however, that when they did the same thing for me, a few years back, I remained faithful and took care of my commitment, no questions or complaints. Of course then, they were "helping me out" but yet now that I am doing it for them, it is still them "helping me out".

I don't get it. And I am disappointed that it is the way that it is.

Apparently, I have some sort of Karmic payback hovering over me. How else to explain the temperature of my life lately. Although, I don't know what payback there might be. I try to live good, make good choices and try my hardest at whatever I do. How else can you live without regret? I don't believe in regret. The worst of events shape who we are, hopefully in a better way than what came before. And, there is reason to be thankful however difficult it is to see at the time. I really am trying to see what there is to be thankful for, in this situation. But it is proving difficult. To say the least...