Purging the Paradox

I have decided that I am not going to eat anymore. That, or live on a diet of peanut butter and jelly toast since that is the only thing that doesn't upset my stomach.

Sounds good to me. And, it would relieve my intimacy issues. (No, I am not going to offer up explaination on that one. Guess ya got to know me.) Two issues cleared up right there.

So, today I am dealing with those feelings. Feelings that you get when you know someone is up to no good or is just no good, period. Someone that really only gives you the time when they themselves are in need. Forget about them ever wondering if you need anything, want anything or the respect of just asking so. And then, they feel smited when you treat them with the same type of disregard. And I would let myself be thrown down by this person again, why? Do they really think I hadn't learned my lesson the first time around? This girl is not so gullible. I have been known to give the benefit of the doubt when something is in question, to my own detriment. Naive, is an adjective heard in conjunction with my name a lot. But when doubt becomes fact...it is another story.

Righty then, a friend of mine told me tonight that he is well aware of the fact that I am a woman. I asked him to inform the rest of mankind because things are a little stagnant over here. He had no comment, I understand why (long story) but even so...I need a little help.