If my boss yells at me again...I am out the door. I sat here this morning contemplating how I could pull it off. How could I leave without a job to go to? I can't. But I sure as hell, thought of any possible way I could. I understand he is feeling the pressure. I understand that he is actually having to do some work that he normally, with a full staff, wouldn't have to do. He feels incompetent and embarrassed when he, as the Boss, doesn't have an answer for his client. But by no means, does that give him right to cut me down and step on me, to make himself feel better. I didnt' have anything to say to him after his rant. I simply left the office and walked across the lot to the grocery. I got myself some coffee and calmed down. Angela, one of the girls in the deli asked "Your eyes look a little watery today? Allergies?"
He came out and apologized later. But it is hard to take back words and let them just be forgotten once they have been said aloud, really loud. I am angry today...
Rachel asked me last night why I didn't just go back to school if I wanted to finish my college education? Well, I would like to. I would like to go back full time. But how can I and work full time and actually have time to take care of Rach? I don't see it happening. And she doesnt' like the idea of me being gone in the evenings or weekends when we have so little time together as it is. I tried, once, to get a grant to be reeducated in another field. Apparently, I tested too high and they said I was over qualified to get a college education. Does that make any sense to you? It was hard for me to get a grip on. I thought...ok...I don't make the kind of salary I could because I don't have a piece of paper that says I have a Bachelors degree, but yet the school says I am too smart to get the funding for the education to get one. I hate feeling held down. It suffocates me, and inertia inevitably sets in. Rachel then said, sensing my frustration with the topic, said "Well maybe you will marry a man that can send you back to college?" *sigh* Yet another sensitive subject...I just smiled and told her that the world just doesn't work like that.
I am looking forward to the clock hitting five.
(Oh and if Noggin' moved back to Louisiana, why did she tell our clients that she was moving to New York? Interesting...)
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Because when people lie they lie about everything to some degree. And she is one to be sure. Arg, I hate that. I was married to one once....as were we all. Well, most of us. lol
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LOl Thanks Frenzied. Tomorrow is another day, I am looking forward to it. Actually tonight was nice. Me and Rach hung out together shopping for my nieces bday and just laughed whenever we could. It is the best medicine. On the funding front, that was about ... Gosh...7 years ago? Maybe not that much, perhaps 6. And i figure I have even more under my belt with training and licenses, so the hope of a grant (which is what I went for before) isn't likely. I suppose I could get a loan, but then there is the paying back thing and I am just not sure getting myself into debt without the guarantee of getting that high paying profession, is a good idea.
Anyway, Get some rest...silly girl. :P
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The girl wasn't good with her lies apparently. I just don't get the New York thing. Why bother with telling them something like that? I don't understand the reasoning. Doesn't really matter I suppose, just made me really curious as to her motivation. And, yeah, I was married to one too. Yeesh..
Maybe she thought New York sounded fancier than Louisiana. Or maybe she just lies about everything. I've certainly dated enough people like that.
Your boss is an a**hole. Tell him I said so. :)
LOL Thanks Slim...you make me giggle.
My boss admits it freely that he is an a**hole. He says all men are. I don't think all of them are. Juts the ones I come into contact with lol...
If you don't mind me asking, what did you want to go back to school for?
As good as you are at photography, and you really do have a gift for it, maybe you could do something with that. Travel magazines are always looking for good pictures, and you don't even have to travel to sell them. I bet you could get some great pictures of the area you live in. And, your hometown newspaper would probably buy pictures from a freelance photographer, too.
Hope the rest of your week goes better. :)
At the time I had applied, I wanted to be a Nurse. There is a great Nursing course a the college here. As time has passed, I would lean more towards taking some more marketing courses and writing.
The week is going, and it really is fine. He, my boss, just made me mad for a little while. I am not going ot let it ruin an entire week. :P Besides, tomorrow is FRIDAY! I am giddy...
I just started back at school. Yes I'm laid off now but I wasn't when I got in and started. Granted being unemployed gives me the money to pay for college but I'm going online. To be honest I am in a class full of working people some with kids. Everyone's juggling quite nicely.
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