I got a lot going through my head. I am not offering excuses for not posting, really. Frankly, I have just been tired. With my adopted mom visiting, it has kept me pretty busy and a little paranoid with someone watching my every move. It's an odd feeling when you sit down to eat your turkey sandwich on your lunch break and have someone staring at you while you eat. Not just watching, but staring, directly at you, about 6 inches from your face. I am trying hard not to write about it. I am trying hard to be patient. I am trying hard to just get through this visit without any altercation in which something ugly could be said. I really don't want that to happen. I just want it to happy, however much I have to hold my frustration under a big fluffy pillow smothering it to death.
So...I plan on posting again later. Really...
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I promise to try to not ever be 'too close' for comfort. But not 'too far' so's ya feel lost. I miss your face.......how did I ever stand that first 25 years...omg. My heart breaks again just thinking about it. Soft kisses Sweetie.....
XXOO
Yikes! I've been there. Any way you can sneak a sip of the cooking sherry? :)
I admire your willingness to hold everything in, be patient and try to keep the peace. I have a very limited capacity to do all three of those things and to try to do them all at once...well, my hat's off to you!
(Cooking sherry? Geez, it's time to pull out the "good" stuff!) :)
It is sad when you feel you have to sneak around in your own house huh Frenzied? It's a weird feeling. And speaking of after the sun's gone down, I hear her at night milling around my house, going through this or that. At like 3am in the morning. One time, when I was visiting her in California, I woke at 2am with this feeling of someone. There she was, standing in the doorway...watching me. I was changing in my bedroom the other day, and she just walked in and sat down. Me, not dressed...etc. Ugh. I am now dressing in my master bath with the door locked.
Mom, you could never be too close for comfort. Just don't watch me naked ok? Besides, if you did, you might require a new subscription for your glasses. :P Love you...
Ya know, Tech, I need to keep some sherry in my cupboard..or something. I think I have some southern comfort in there I use for cooking. That would work just fine! lol
I am trying Crystal. Really hard. My patience is coming from the fact that she is elderly, still manipulative, but elderly and deserves extra patience I think. I don't know how much longer she will be alive, to be honest, and I don't want her passing with regrets on my mind.
Odd as it may seem the remark you made about seeing you nakie. Well, it was my pleasure to watch you bath Rach when she was a baby. Cause it helped see what I had missed or at least a tiny glimps. Be still my heart.....oh goodness. Tears.
Your ability to 'stuff it' is remarkable.....Hang in there, Darlin. The end is near (for this visit I mean...lol)
XXOO
Was Rachel a cute baby or what? Those little chubby baby legs...
LOL ya know Frenzied...I still haven't found my Birth Father...:P
I am doing fine, I can handle her. So far there are no long term effects...but we still have a few days to go.
We only had a nanny 'cause she worked all the time. But I am glad we did...
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