'Round abouts

Ever feel invisible? Ever feel like your standing in the middle of the road and instead of someone acknowleding you, they move around? It was much easier for them to make the adjustment of movement versus the adjustment of actually making note of your existence. I have my days when I like to just hide from the world. But it isn't because I happen to be really busy, it is because I would rather lay in bed and try to forget all the times I was passed over, ignored and deemed unimportant by another.

I think of my achievments that were given credit to someone else. I think of suggestions I have made in other positions that won much favor, but someone else said it was their idea. I think of my job now, and how, despite what most say about my importance, it doesn't make a difference to the one that counts most. I think of those that are now successful in a business when I was the one that suggested the track it should take to begin with.

I know I shouldn't seek praise or thanks. I know it seems selfish to expect such a thing when you should give without the expectation of return. I do so for the most part. I am happy to help when and where I can, regardless of the situation. I try to do so with an open mind and without regard to my own needs and desires.

But sometimes?...sometimes it would be nice. Even, if some would just remember who the hell I am.

Life is great. I am thankful. But it doesn't mean I can't feel crappy every now and then.