Torn

I am always amazed at how My DailyOM seems to correlate with my day. Sometimes I realize it right off, sometimes not until after. Kinda funny.

Rachel's dad is spending the entire day with her today. It makes me nervous since he hasn't spent a whole day with her in a very long time. When he visits, it is only for a couple hours at best, once a year. To top it off, she is sick. I was home with her yesterday and would be home with her today too, if it were not for him being here in town. I called to tell him yesterday that she was ill. But it didn't seem to make much difference to him. It isn't just some little sniffle. She has fevers, congestion and this morning, she was hugging the porcelain. I am sitting here, while she showers, thinking of what I can do to make the situation work out best for all. I could stay home with her and just let him take her for a couple hours, ensuring that she gets home and gets some rest, instead of being out in the weather all day. Or, let her go, and hope for the best. I just don't know...

I think this is that part about being a single parent, that frustrates me the most. Her care has always been my main priority. It has always been on me alone (with much support from family) to make sure she was ok. Sometimes my worry goes to extremes, I realize that, but I feel justified when it comes to the relationship with her dad.

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And now, that some time has passed, I opted to stay home. I felt better knowing that if she wasn't feel up to spending the whole day, that she could come home and rest. So far it is working pretty good. She went to breakfast and then came back to relax before heading off to the museum for a couple hours. After that, she can come home and sleep.

Compromise is a good thing...