Eruptions

Sometimes....I feel really evil. I have absolute hatred for some people..or rather a particular person. You would think it would fade over time. That somehow forgiveness would find it's way into my being. But forgiveness seems to be one of my life's lessons. Cause it is something I have the hardest time with. This person isn't even worth my hatred much less anything of value. I wish and hope for bad things for him. Wishes of complete failure. That he would be walked away from..left alone...and abandoned. No regard for his feelings or needs. I find myself in almost a begging position. Please let everything horrible fall unto this person. He deserves no happiness...no reward for efforts that have only taken from others to serve his own purpose. He used me, belittled me and then made me out to be some unworthy waste of his time and a joke to friends. Full of back handed and condesending replies. And then replied only at his convenience. I see no change in this person. Perhaps, maybe, a better facade on display to gain what he needs to start his business. So many people were right about him...and still are. There used to be a day that if opportunity presented itself...I would help him out. Even without acknowledgement from him. (which he is incapable of) Now...if the opportunity arises that would allow me to help to thwart his efforts. I most certainly would make it my top priority. "A recomendation? Oh...don't use this service...the owner is an ass."