Trouble sleeping again. I shock myself with things I am capable of. Not only with what I say but what I choose to do. Almost uncontrollable. When something can overcome your common sense and lessons learned and drive you to complete abandon. Stupidity comes to mind. I wish I could claim ignorance, but you can't when you know better. Hindsight never had such meaning. Not much to do but forge ahead, again. I once read that some people live out of survival. That instinct that drives us to move on each and every day. Keep pushing forward and maybe, just maybe, something will produce. I am tired of being a survivalist. Tired of finding that way to make it past another day, only to go through it again the next. The solution? I have no clue.
I have this friend I talk to now and again. He lives his life just basically doing whatever he feels like. One month he may fly off to Puerto Rico...another month off to Europe. He spent 3 months in Alaska last summer just driving around to see what it offered. He is buying a sailboat so he can sail to other unknown places. I actually named the boat for him...reminiscent of the name of this page. Having to do with patches on ones soul.. I am envious that he lives his life with such freedom. With no strings, no confinement, no rules governing his existence. I see also his loss. Some things that I treasure and could not live without, he has chosen to exclude. But still that freedom. The attitude of letting oneself go. Desirous to say the least.
2 comments:
Yes its me......been readin again.....lol......ok. Soul patches = little tiny hairy thingys under the bottom lip of mostly men and few interesting women. Whats your descript???
Ha! You crack me up...
Ok, yes, they are little hairy things that liken themselves to lip beards. Interesting choice for facial hair, I must say. Interesting women? Yes I would think so if they can't even take the care to wax their own face if needed. Yikes...
I prefer a full on goatee myself. NO, not for myself, persay, but on men. Very attractive.
Soul Patch I meant to take on more of a meaning that had to do with healing oneself. Maybe too deep...or just plain corny. It works for me I guess....
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