Shakespeares' Rival

Drama.

Sometimes, I will write out something, only to foretell my own circumstances. Survival has been a main issue for me today. Maybe I make it so. Maybe it is just coincidence. Maybe not. Or, it is just how things are and I only state the obvious. I really couldn't tell ya.

Anyway...
I never realized how many people visit Wal-Mart during the day. Yeesh...had to run there on my lunch break to get some pantyhose. It was an event. All I wanted was some pantyhose. One thing. There isn't much else there I want, except maybe, toilet paper. I could have gone somewhere else but they are cheapest there and well, I am cheap. I prefer "thrifty" however. I could have waited, but I am somewhat anal and had a run down my left leg. I was wearing pants so no one could see but still...I knew it was there. Like many other things, we make it so no one will notice. But we know it's there. (Am I getting redundant yet?) I am big on acknowledgment. If there is something to do? Do it. If there is something to be said? Say it. Got a feeling? Feel it.
I was told by someone today that sometimes...you just got to fake it. I understand why I was told that, why it was needed, and why some do it. It is hard for me not to be real. My discernment in situations has been...hmmm....bad. I have gone from holding my feelings completely back at one time in my life, to spewing them forth like Mt St Helens may soon be. Hot molten words running across my lips. (Thats kind of a weird vision) And as some know first hand, they aren't always nice. Truth can be ugly at times. Even my own. I need balance. I don't want to hold back cause I feel dishonest, but I don't want to push cause I feel like I would hurt someones own feelings. And I really don't want to. I am meant to do something more here and I just don't know what yet. (Ok maybe that last statement was off the wall...work with me)