Alice Understood

"One pill makes you smaller, one pill makes you larger, the pills mother gives you do nothing at all," observed the Cheshire-Cat.


A lot of people say that they get them. But sometimes I wonder if they know what it really is or that they don't know the name of what it is they are experiencing. There are so many different types and levels. I have read about all of them, looked and taken some of the prescriptions. I prefer the natural way of dealing with them, through diet and herbal remedies. They aren't always available to me though and I am having one today. It's edge has worn off now though and I am beginning to feel the deep pang of being sleep deprived and hungry. I don't have them very often, but when I do and am finally feeling the relief of it passing, I get major cravings. Anything considered high in protein. It is like my body has burned so much energy dealing with this, that it has been completely depleted and needs replenishment now. My friends can usually tell when I am experiencing one. My eyes are bloodshot, squinty, glazed and a sickening color of yellow has taken over my cheeks cause at any moment, I may hurl. Hugging the porcelain God, blowing whatever pain I can extract from my face. Sorry for any graphics...but it's true. I think I am one of the lucky ones, in that, I can function most times in the midst of it. There have been ones, where I had to leave whatever I was doing to find some dark, warm, quiet place in which to recover. Those are few, however, and thankfully so.

"If I had a world of my own, everything would be nonsense. Nothing would be what it is because everything would be what it isn't. And contrary-wise; what it is it wouldn't be, and what it wouldn't be, it would. You see?" Alice in Wonderland