Thursday. This week has been a push. Maybe because of the weather we have had. It is all a bit more difficult to get to where I need to go and setbacks in my speed about town have been a'many. Maybe that will just be my excuse. I dunno. I don't see much relief until Sunday. I think that day will be filled with absolutely nothing. Except my wonderful jami's, a down comforter and a video game or two. I need my days to veg. It isn't so much all the activity I have had going on, but my thoughts as well.
Thoughts of my so sick mom in California. How I would like to do more but can't from a distance and wondering what my siblings think of me not being there. My little brothers' life being so full of turmoil and the effects it has on my parents here. That feeling of wishing you could do something to make it better, help him to see how hard he makes it for himself and the hopes that your parents will be ok with the fact that he doesn't. How heavy it makes their oh so beautiful and giving hearts. It is hard to find the right words to say for each of those things. To truly convey those deep feelings.
Maybe it is the activity of my mind that makes this week seem so long, and not the ones so physical. Anyway...my day is beginning and it is off to the races...again.
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