Happy Monday to my 5 readers. Actually, only once in a while would it be 5. The best friend only stops by when I tell her to. Thanks for the support Deb! I am kidding...you know I love you... There used to be more. But they were only here and there and that was cause I was dating them and I figured if they were to truly like me for who I am then they needed to read the ugly parts of me too. Not just the nice ones.
They are gone now. :P
The last guy I dated, the one I haven't answered as yet and not really sure I am going to, read my page. He asked me at one point, "So, I need to know something?" "Ok, you know you can ask me anything and I will answer truthfully however much I may not want to." I said. He asked..."This guy you write about, Where do you stand on that?" Ugh...I thought. This question sucks. How do I answer this without putting the kabosh on whatever possibility? So I just said it. "I know my words are harsh where he is concerned, or at least have been, I have the attitude now of "hate the sin but love the person". I experienced a lot that he isn't aware of or won't acknowledge but it isn't for me to judge him in that respect. I guess I am indifferent" He wasn't satisfied with my answer and asked "What if he came back into your life?" "Hmm. Ok. Well..I don't know. I don't think he would. Not on purpose anyway." I sidestepped the question. Took it off of me and put it back to what he would do. Like I know. I don't. I couldn't explain a 6 year friendship that was tossed and treated like one night stand gone sour, in a two sentence answer. I asked him if that was enough information or if he needed more? And then, he sidestepped mine. Hmmm.
I have a hard time answering questions about a future I am uncertain about. I don't know my own. I know what is now and that is all I can promise or give to anyone, in that respect. When you love someone, you tell them everyday cause you don't know what tomorrow will bring or, for that matter, take away.
8 comments:
HAve you ever read Henry Miller's Smile at the Bottom of the Ladder??
Hmmm no, but now you have me curious.
Thanks for stopping by...
Ahem. I read you daily, and you and I have never dated. Not that I remember. I mean, there were those college years and things are a bit fuzzy and you don't happen to have a picture of the Dali Lama tattooed on your hiney, do you? I thought not. No, we never dated, and I drop by and read your blog. So there. I'm not sure what my point was, but I made it. I think.
Too funny.
A few things...
Thanks for visiting me daily, I sort of thought maybe and you were included in the 5. :P
No tatts on the hiney...a freckle maybe and an interesting scar but that might be another conversation. (scars on the hiney are always somewhat interesting. Yes?)
We have never dated. Unfortunately, I remember each and every one. Not that I wouldn't date you. The miles and state borders are a bit of a hinderance, however.
One last...
I thought there wasn't supposed to be any points?
Make it 6! I read you daily :) I've never felt the need of commenting - but I really enjoy reading your posts.
Well make it six then! Thanks Sammy...perhaps you will find a need in the future. It would be welcomed.
Okay, I admit it. I come here pretty often, too. I think your blog is the closest I've read that fits my image of what a internet journal should be and I enjoy reading it. I love the title of your blog, too. (I'll try to leave more comments.)
Dang me. How cool? :P
I certainly wasn't fishing for anything. I am glad I have visitors though.
Thanks Crystal! I am happy that you do! Only leave comments if you feel so moved to...they are always welcomed though. :)
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