Ever feel like you were drowning? Drowning in your own emotions, fears and questions? I felt it last night. My poor daughter. She just gives me her big blue eyes and asks "What's wrong Mama?" and it breaks me up all over again. She is so amazingly sweet and genuinely caring that I feel bad for her to even see me that way. Although, I know it is good for kids to see that there will be difficulties and setbacks in life and that they can be worked through, it is hard for me to let her see mom upset. She takes on this protective place over me, watching out for me and wanting to do or say something to make it better. I don't want her to grow up too fast or to feel the burdens of being an adult just yet. I don't want her to think that it is ok to not deal with stuff either. Sometimes dealing with it makes tears, or feelings of anger or even happiness. You got to feel the bad, just like you want to feel the good.
I have been dealing with my friend on the whole marketing issue, email thing I received last week. I was angry at first. Which is why I had to step away for a few days and let that pass before I could answer his email objectively. I actually have learned over the years that I need to not respond out of emotion to everything... Anyway, it is going. The communication part. Just not sure how well as yet...
2 comments:
Your "friend" sounds like he needs to meet the toe of my big ole boot if you ask me and even if you don't! :)
At this point, I would be in agreement. I sent a final email regarding this "job" and I have yet to hear his response. I suppose I should get when it is time to walk away. There will be other opportunities to better the financial aspect of my life, I am sure.
Thanks for the boot. ;)
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