Can't take my eyes off of you

He's cute huh? He was peeking out from this drain, under the old lodge at Odell Lake. I had fun this weekend, I hope everyone else did too. It's such a cool place. We went and checked out some of the cabins they have for rent. They are open year 'round, and we thought it would be great to rent one in the Winter and try our hand at snowmobiling. :) I have to say, I like being with someone that is up for trying new things, right along with me.

Life, can be an adventure, if you let it.

Chris and I talked a bit tonight, about my apprehension. For closeness that is. It isn't that i don't like him, I do...very much so, I just seem to be taking my time or really trying to figure out, how to get back to the kind of person I was where relationships were concerned. I used to be passionate, took risks and sort of a carefree mentality and openess when I was falling for someone. I am different now. And I suppose that all these years of getting beat up emotionally, and beating myself up emotionally, has taken it's toll. I understand better, about walls and the difficulty in breaking them down. The more he talks to me about his feelings for me, all the wonderful things he thinks I am, and how he sees nothing but good things between us, the thicker that wall feels. The more I try to absorb his words and tell myself he is true, that much less the light comes through the cracks in the concrete. It's like I am losing air...

He says he understands and knows I feel the same, and he said he was patient. That I would say how I felt when I could. How odd hmmm? All this time I had wanted to find a person that treated me well, cherished me and protected me and now I am the one having difficulties. This time, I am the one with the problem.

Even so, he sings "You must be too good to be true..."